Fuck This Shit

I wrote this before all of the whining of the past couple of posts.  Healing and moving on is cyclical.  So much happened since I wrote this BUT this – this is a part of the story and part of the journey and must go down on the page. Here it is: You know I AM …

Tangled

I am a tangled mess of everything beautiful, hopeful and yet so much doubt and fear. For some reason it feels better when I am not in hope.  But that seems wrong.....it seems wrong to stay in that safe place. The past...trying to clear it but because we have kids the past is not the …

He Is So Lonely

Peck, peck, peck.... I really miss my computer. anyways... he is so lonely and it hurts to watch but it is his choice. It's his choice how he moves forward in life. I am not so lonely. In fact I am far less lonely than when I was married. He hates this and he says …

Forgiveness

The book I'm reading is intense because it was written for people who are dealing with autrocitities that make my situation seem futile. But that's not very loving is it? My pain and loss is my pain and loss and it is valid ... I know this to be true. As intense as it is …