I am awake and I am spent. I am spent and I am awake.
I am angry. The Guilt Project was about moving past guilt to be angry and get it out and I thought I did but I am so angry this very minute and I do not even want to touch the Guilt project and rewrite it. I wrote it once…I do not want to visit it again. I am done.
I do not want to revisit the past….I want to get on with this very precious and awesome life in front of me. But more than anything this moment ~ I wish he would go away. I wish I did not have to work amicably with him. Right now I will use a word I never use….I think I might hate him.
Letting Go, Being Love 
you cant fight an enemy you don’t name. its ok to hate him, especially if it helps you get past him.
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Its hard to use the word hate in context of the father of your children and somebody you spent two decades with….yet it does feel like a necessity to gain clarity…but its hard.
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well you can start with hating how he acts about things. it’s a start.
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true…
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I’m sorry☹️. Sometimes feeling the hate is necessary to move past it. We’re all allowed moments where anger takes over. Thinking of you and hoping you’ll find a “lighter” day 🙂.
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Thank you. It has been a lighter couple of days.
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