And She Will Dance

Dancing would have saved my marriage?  That is a bit STRONG of a statement but maybe. For the early years of being a mom I NEVER went out.  In a really BAD way I never went out alone ~ sans children.  The more I needed it....at its peak with four boys under 5, the more …

Choosing Me

I have amazing beautiful friends but one in particular is often in awe of my big heart and simultaneously terrified of what I will do next. Today she said "I am feeling motherly and so what about the thing I said? You've apparently not given any thought to my earlier suggestion that you seriously invest …

But I Am Ready

But I am ready.  I truly am.  I am ready to let go of being miserable, alone and lonely.  I am ready to embrace the things that are GOOD that come to me without the following sense of dread and guilt.  Life is short isnt it? Let me be open for REAL.  Let me LET …

Anger To Tears

Yesterday's anger did eventually turn to tears.  It always does and it always is sadness and mourning of the loss underlying the anger . It is a loss you know?  Divorce, endings...even if you are the one that made the call.  It is a REAL thing....it is a REAL process....and it can be longer than you …

OUCH a Year

I have been writing...honestly I have...just not on here.  I am never quite sure how to bring my writing "here".  I do this often with blogs....I change my course and then drop the blog.  Letting Go, Being Love?  I am still trying to be that but the focus on ease and attracting and focusing on …